| Inner Thoughts ; An Honest Statement |
[17 Mar 2009|02:04am] |
UPDATE! Added some more
I miss you so much Sasha.
I know you don't want to be involved in my life anymore. I just want one last chance to make things better.
Better in every way possible. Lately, I've been so self-destructive. I wish you would just let me back into your life.
I don't ever feel like myself.
I will beg. I just can't agree to that No.
I'm sorry. I really was a terrible boyfriend. I don't blame you for leaving.
I hooked up with Sam. I can't make it seem like it was her fault, cause anyway I worded would just be stupid. Hooking up is Hooking up. Morally, it's wrong. You still had feelings for me, and I still have much for you. Although we're not together if something like that were to occur to you instead, I'd act the same way.
I've threatened you with suicide threats.
I was always hurting you, having you lie to your parents to see me. And I wasn't even that great.
( I'd like to have this time to share with you a brief moment of how guilty I feel and terrible and why I've been so angry. )
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[28 Feb 2009|05:22pm] |
This song makes me happy. You know where the shout out goes to!
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[18 Feb 2009|01:06am] |
We can't save this world.
I can't save you.
You can't save me.
Why would you save me?!
I feel so detatched.
I am so angry.
What the fuck?!
Am I a bad friend?
I always fuck everything up.
Exit this world. Al-fucken-ready..., Open the next.
I'll whisper save me.
Everyday I feel like this is it. I'm ready to kill myself. I am ready to end it all. I have no motivation, excitement, friends, etc.
It's only after you lost everything that you're free to do anything.
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[12 Feb 2009|10:28pm] |
SOMEONE FUCKEN TRIED TO STEAL MY CAR
BROKE MY WINDOW
MY FUCKEN BACKPACK IS STOLEN
I HAD ALL MY SCHOOL STUFF IN IT
FUCK
I AM SO PISSED I SWEAR I'LL FUCKEN KILL SOMEONE
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[30 Jan 2009|12:21pm] |
Today
My Great-Grandmother just passed away. Actually she passed away last night.
She lives in laos. I hope she lives a great after life.
She meant the world to me growing up. She was such a nice lady.
But also a very strange one. Eating Rice with everything. Heh.
Words can't describe how I feel. last time I saw her was when I was in laos in 2005 December.
And you know what sucks?! I can never ever see her again.
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[25 Dec 2008|08:51am] |
I'll just leave this here
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[25 Dec 2008|08:20am] |
I've never felt so alive.
Disregard that last post.
Merry Christmas Everyone.
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[25 Dec 2008|02:43am] |
I've never been so depressed on Christmas.
I'm not scared of what I might have.
I just know that some people go through this and I don't need guidance.
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[24 Dec 2008|03:13am] |
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I feel like I get bipolar as the night comes.
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[24 Dec 2008|02:32am] |
I am starting to hate myself.
For the reputation I made for myself.
Everyone thinks I'm an asshole. I am.
I hate how I am. am I how hate I
I hate my image.
I hate myself more and more each day.
I wish I didn't feel anything. Not a goddam fucking thing...
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[23 Dec 2008|06:15pm] |
If I could speak Korean Fluently, I'd sing you this song.
Cause I believe!~
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[19 Dec 2008|01:04am] |
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fuck you exacto knife....
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[18 Dec 2008|10:14pm] |
I can't even sleep off my feelings
I can't even sleep off my moods.
I feel miserable
I don't wanna feel this way anymore.
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[18 Dec 2008|10:12pm] |
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I don't even know how to feel or act anymore.
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