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Inner Thoughts ; An Honest Statement [17 Mar 2009|02:04am]
UPDATE! Added some more

I miss you so much Sasha.

I know you don't want to be involved in my life anymore. I just want one last chance to make things better.

Better in every way possible. Lately, I've been so self-destructive. I wish you would just let me back into your life.

I don't ever feel like myself.

I will beg. I just can't agree to that No.

I'm sorry. I really was a terrible boyfriend. I don't blame you for leaving.

I hooked up with Sam. I can't make it seem like it was her fault, cause anyway I worded would just be stupid. Hooking up is Hooking up. Morally, it's wrong. You still had feelings for me, and I still have much for you. Although we're not together if something like that were to occur to you instead, I'd act the same way.

I've threatened you with suicide threats.
I was always hurting you, having you lie to your parents to see me. And I wasn't even that great.

I'd like to have this time to share with you a brief moment of how guilty I feel and terrible and why I've been so angry.Collapse )
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[28 Feb 2009|05:22pm]


This song makes me happy. You know where the shout out goes to!
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[18 Feb 2009|01:06am]
We can't save this world.

I can't save you.

You can't save me.

Why would you save me?!

I feel so detatched.

I am so angry.

What the fuck?!

Am I a bad friend?

I always fuck everything up.

Exit this world. Al-fucken-ready..., Open the next.

I'll whisper save me.

Everyday I feel like this is it. I'm ready to kill myself. I am ready to end it all. I have no motivation, excitement, friends, etc.

It's only after you lost everything that you're free to do anything.
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[12 Feb 2009|10:28pm]
SOMEONE FUCKEN TRIED TO STEAL MY CAR

BROKE MY WINDOW

MY FUCKEN BACKPACK IS STOLEN

I HAD ALL MY SCHOOL STUFF IN IT

FUCK

I AM SO PISSED I SWEAR I'LL FUCKEN KILL SOMEONE
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[08 Feb 2009|06:47pm]
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[30 Jan 2009|12:21pm]
Today

My Great-Grandmother just passed away. Actually she passed away last night.

She lives in laos. I hope she lives a great after life.

She meant the world to me growing up. She was such a nice lady.

But also a very strange one. Eating Rice with everything. Heh.

Words can't describe how I feel. last time I saw her was when I was in laos in 2005 December.

And you know what sucks?! I can never ever see her again.
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[14 Jan 2009|01:52am]
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[31 Dec 2008|02:34pm]
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[25 Dec 2008|08:51am]
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I'll just leave this here
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[25 Dec 2008|08:20am]
I've never felt so alive.

Disregard that last post.

Merry Christmas Everyone.

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[25 Dec 2008|02:43am]
I've never been so depressed on Christmas.

I'm not scared of what I might have.

I just know that some people go through this and I don't need guidance.
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[24 Dec 2008|03:13am]
I feel like I get bipolar as the night comes.
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[24 Dec 2008|02:32am]
I am starting to hate myself.

For the reputation I made for myself.

Everyone thinks I'm an asshole. I am.

I hate how I am. am I how hate I

I hate my image.

I hate myself more and more each day.

I wish I didn't feel anything. Not a goddam fucking thing...
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[23 Dec 2008|06:15pm]
If I could speak Korean Fluently, I'd sing you this song.



Cause I believe!~
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[20 Dec 2008|10:27pm]
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[19 Dec 2008|01:31am]
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[19 Dec 2008|01:04am]
fuck you exacto knife....
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[18 Dec 2008|10:14pm]
I can't even sleep off my feelings

I can't even sleep off my moods.

I feel miserable

I don't wanna feel this way anymore.
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[18 Dec 2008|10:12pm]
I don't even know how to feel or act anymore.
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[17 Dec 2008|11:54pm]
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